July 19 2007

4 words worth waiting for
Yesterday James came over we played Sims 2 and cuddled on the floor in the living room. We watched disney channel lol corey in the house, hannah montana, and Suite life. I have no clue y lol . Well while sitting on the floor he started kissing me ( and i think its important to mention that this was infront of my little brother mind) Jordan did not notice for like 4 min, but in those four minuits James pulled back and looked at me, then he said the four words that are always worth waiting for "I love you." I could not believe it! I was OMFG!!! YAY and then i said that i love him to, and i do. He is so great, i mean the other night was our one month anniv. and i went to his house and we kissed in his pool and talked. Then he came back to my house and we cuddled on the couch to watch HP #1 becuase we were both going to see Harry Potter 5 in theaters on Sunday. I fell asleep in his arms and he held me tight and i woke up and he was smiling at me. Later he asked this in a conversation:

Jpokerking (12:20:22 AM): miss ya beautiful <3
Just2cuite(12:20:32 AM): miss you too <3 cant wait to see you
Jpokerking (12:20:35 AM): is it kk if i call ya that all the time?
Jpokerking(12:20:43 AM): i kinda like it
Just2cuite(12:20:46 AM): its perfectly fine lol
Jpokerking (12:20:48 AM): i can't wait either
Jpokerking (12:20:52 AM): awesome
Jpokerking (12:20:56 AM): beautiful
Just2cuite (12:21:10 AM): awesome lol <3 goodnight, sweet dreams
Jpokerking (12:21:15 AM): u 2
Jpokerking (12:21:17 AM): and i mean it
Just2cuite (12:21:25 AM): i had good dreams last night
Just2cuite (12:21:27 AM): *S*
Just2cuite (12:21:36 AM): so mabe i will tonight
Jpokerking (12:21:39 AM): what'd u dream about?
Just2cuite(12:22:11 AM): i dont really remember....but for once it was not scary or sad, i woke up smileing
Just2cuite (12:22:18 AM): i dont usually remember my good dreams
Jpokerking (12:22:21 AM): awesome
Just2cuite (12:22:22 AM): just that they were good
Just2cuite(12:22:29 AM): its was awesome
Jpokerking (12:22:31 AM): what'd u dream about while u were in my arms
Just2cuite(12:22:45 AM): feeling safe and happy
Jpokerking (12:22:56 AM): what happened in the dream
Jpokerking (12:23:08 AM): and u should always feel safe in my arms
Jpokerking (12:23:19 AM): nothing can happen to u there
Just2cuite(12:23:45 AM): i was dreaming about lieing in your arms oddly enough, and i felt more safe then i have felt in a really long time
Jpokerking(12:24:03 AM): awesome
Just2cuite(12:24:18 AM): and ill dream about the same thing tonight if i can, becuase thats my favorite dream now
Jpokerking (12:24:30 AM): awesome
Jpokerking (12:24:55 AM): i'd come over right now so we could do the same thing but it can't be helped
Just2cuite (12:25:06 AM): no sadly it cant
Jpokerking(12:25:09 AM): i'll promise u though we'll do it again in the near future though
Just2cuite(12:25:23 AM): cant wait, ill just have to imagine till them
Just2cuite(12:25:25 AM): * then
Jpokerking (12:25:40 AM): awesome
Just2cuite (12:26:14 AM): if you dont mind me asking before you go, what were you thinking while i was asleep in ur arms?
Just2cuite(12:26:44 AM): u dont have to answer, if you dont want to btw
Just2cuite(12:26:47 AM): just so you know
Jpokerking (12:26:58 AM): well
Jpokerking (12:27:07 AM): i felt like i could protect anyone
Jpokerking (12:27:14 AM): but u were the only one that mattered then
Jpokerking (12:27:42 AM): and i felt comforted at the same time that u could fall asleep in my arms twice in the same night
Just2cuite(12:28:03 AM): haha lol though i tried not to, i was just so tired and so happy
Just2cuite(12:28:10 AM): and comfertable
Just2cuite(12:28:14 AM): and safe
Just2cuite (12:28:19 AM): i sorta could not help it
Jpokerking(12:28:33 AM): that's great to hear


It was SOOOO COOL!!!!!!! and then this is yesterday after he told me he loved me for the first time.


JpokerkingX52 (5:54:39 PM): i love ya beautiful
Just2cuite4u (5:54:44 PM): I love you too

Im so happy. I feel safe and like i belong for the first time. Its just really......nice.